The final curtain?

Hi everybody :)

What's new in the life of me... nothing much really.
My training week is over since last week and I really liked it. It was not as good as the previous one (about Camping) but I think it was okay (hope so to)
The prof. who came was mrs DeMeyere, from Artsclass. I was so anxious that everything went wrong (like with Mrs Mestdagh in "Brooms") She really was doubting my skills to be kindergartenteacher.. I'm feeling depressed now, cos last t.w the other prof said I really had it in me. What to do? I have no clue.. My mentor really was very pleased with me and helped me through it. She really believes in me and sorta discussed it with the prof. They HAVE to let me go to my final year. I'm not getting my hopes high up yet! But what to do huh?! I know it'll be a bad grade. Although my prof gave me a 10, I am not really sure if i'll be getting a 10 as well in the final conclusion. A lot of discussing between all my profs, wil decide if i'm going.
The bad thing is that if i'll be getting a D+, I think it will be no good for taking the IEKS project. So no Ireland then as well.. I was doubting if I'd annuled my participation.. (bad huh?!) grr..
(sorry, a bit of mourning spirit-->) why, has life to be SO difficult? And why am I doubting so much? I(t) really makes me sick sometimes. Could I be the girl who has to do her year yet again? Like my first year? That makes me crazy I think. Although Eline said her boyfriend has doubled all his years at college! Who is the craziest one then? =) I thought I'd be a bit too desperet.
But I think no.. how many experience the better perhaps? That's what Demeyere said to Sarah this morning.. (I think it's right too!!) so Actually, it's even better to do my year again? What do ya say?
You're probably thinking.. what's up with the English lyrics?? Well! I'm practising for my 'intakegesprek' (sorry don't know the word in E.) and it will be in English, please forgive me my horrid mistakes! I'm going the 21th May (You have to wish me succes!) and I'm hoping to get excepted. I was doubting to go, but Eline forced me! :P

Well, that's it for now :) See you next time!!
greetz
xxSara