Angry dreams..

 

No nonon.. no angry birds.. just an angry dream I got this night/morning..

And if felt quite bad/angry/good at the same time/bad feeling about it..

and now I had the whole day of angry feelings I just can't seem to shake off me..

WELL MOSTLY BECAUSE OF PMS (so you now..)

But when it interferes with my dreams.. and I can remember it so vividly.. 

Yesterday I saw a picture of all of my coworkers.. WITHOUT ME.. that somehow sparked some rage in me.. (some could say a little jealousy perhaps.. who knows..), although my dream wasn't really about that.. it somehow influenced my dream.. which  involved my nephew (who was going to throw a weddingparty).. in my dream I learned that probably we weren't invited.. (because of .. to much of large family, many friends,.. you know, quite logical AND rational  stuff)..  but somehow I managed to be some kind of bitch in my own f** dream... and had some weird super powers to really ruine their lives.. :O and did a lot of meaaaaaan stuff..

One of the mean things I was doing ALL DAY LONG was turning their light on in the house! JUST BASIC DEMONIC STUFF isn't it! and when they switched it off,... I would doooo it just over and over again :D HAHAHAHA... welcome in hell.. it's annoying.

Ah well.. 

in the end it's just plain psycological stuff right, mixed in with some hormones and emotions and you get a fantasy dream.. 

it just comes to this... i don't like being excluded.. nor from my work, nor from my family.. and it quite hurts my feelings... cos this happend allready all of my life.. starting in elementary school.. just nog quite fitting in with the others.. not finding any 'contact point'.. (if you know what I mean)...  and now happening all over again in my work and even in my own family... oh well... i'm not really that close anymore with everyone.. i'm just living my life, going through stuff, (like PMS) and a small depression it seems like.. 

In the end my dream ended with me swimming with orca's.. so all is well again... AND! As Lord of freakking whatever I just ordered the whales to come swim with me, like they did.. as in .. swimming in a large pool and stuff.. 

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as in today.. i asked my mother about their wedding.. As she tells me we probably wont getting any invites.. YES! fortune telling!!! :P i knew it all along..

AND PMS is a BTCH.